Monday, January 24, 2011

What's It All About Alfie?

This mornings sunrise!
 If its art your looking for today go to my other blog . This ones for me.
 What's it all about???  Most of you don't know that for the past 2 weeks (seems like much longer) I've been a pretty sick lady. It was a bronchial thing , fever and either in bed or on the couch..  When your  that sick and not 30 anymore you start to think about 'stuff'. Hmmm! , you know the kind of things that start to creep into your mind when you reach a certain age. For you people under 60 this is not for you.. No joke!  Like I said if its art you want go to my other blog.. I need to get this off my chest... !
 A friend of mine and I got into a conversation last night. We've known each other every day  for over 20 years. We've been to hell and back,  and now we're trying to figure out whats next?  Well, we know whats next..  and I don't like it. ..not one bit. !!!
  Doesn't matter that  I look and feel 20 years younger than I am. . lucky? good genes?  Sure,  but lets get real. No matter how I look and feel things are happening.. Not to be morbid or morose, I know where the next few years is taking me.. I already find myself wondering where my art will wind up, and  things I treasure,  somebodys garage sale? I notice I've  been giving away things.. and not looking to collect more..  I like to make other people happy!
  When I was very young, I mean very young I used to fear death as something that your life ends ,,....  .. there was absolutely no way out but that you had to go that way. I'd get in a panic I was all of 15 maybe. . you were but a  grain of sand on the beach, the water comes over you takes you out and there you remain forever at the bottom of the ocean with all the other  gazillion grains of sand.. I don't fear it as much anymore , my grandmother told me that we have sort of a built in thing that just mellows out with age and makes it easier to live with  ..  So...... thats why I live and  fly by the seat of my pants, and thats the  excuse for getting myself a Netbook .! . sure. don't need it,  wanted one, it was just delivered to my door, and look I'm happy ! when I'm happy I make other people happy ,  thats what its all about Alfie !!!!!!!!! you listening Sondra?


  1. You know, I have seen that movie three times and it always has a profound effect on me!
    Glad you are young and happy and not a grain of sand!

  2. Ha ha ha! I'm glad you're making yourself and the rest of us happy. That's what it's all about. Just how old are you??? Your post sounds like you are borderline ancient or dreading that possibility. I still don't look my age, even though I am bordering ancient. I actually have less aches and pains than I did 10 years ago. All a matter of finding out what works for you and grabbing onto it. Dreading is not a preferred place to be. I still collect a little, and make things for myself. I want to be pleasing myself until that last breath. And yes, I figure much of my loved possessions will wind up in garage sales, but who cares. Some of my most loved possessions were someone else's at one time or another. One just has to put the right perspective on things. Have fun with your netbook!

  3. The number is pretty amazing when I say it. but I won't say ... and no not dreading at all. thats what the mellowing does to you!

  4. Well my dear Barbra J, I don't care how old you are, you are just beautiful in my eyes. And you do indeed look 20 years younger than you are (oh to have a sliver of such alleles). At 51, I walk those same thoughts much of the time but I admit that I am a melancholy. I'm so glad you bought yourself that little gem! And I have to admit, the whole turn of thoughts doesn't scare me as much as it used to either. As to your blog title? Thanks. Now I have that song running through my head!!! LOLOLOL


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